erase and rewind

11 weeks now and just over a week to our dating scan.

I wonder when there will finally be a time when I can forget about that evil bitch and how weak my husband was during 2005.

I worry about him coming off the medication because what if its the pills that are keeping him happy and the reality is he really doesnt want to be with us......and by that time there is me and 3 children.

I realise that part of these insecurties are linked to my pregnancy.

I just wish last year never fucking happened